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The Life Cycle of a Female Blogger

Bloggers who blog about day-to-day life start out excited. They write cute posts, elaborate on how wonderful their husbands are, and complain about their lives (in a way that is really bragging). Then, they get punchy. They share their opinions on the world. Next, they realize that opinions are one-dimensional because it’s hard to have a conversation on a computer screen, so they add fluffy posts. Look at my dog! I like chocolate! Over time, they figure out their blogger voice. Then they have children. They stop posting save the additional picture of their baby. Partially because they are busy, but mostly because their life has changed tremendously and they cannot figure out how to put that into words. So it goes – their blog remains forever on a date long past with a picture of a baby who is now in school and could type a blog of their own. On friends’ blogger blog rolls their once-active page is listed at the bottom as “updated 1 years ago.”

I don’t know what 2012 will bring. Will Hil Street continue beyond 2011? Remains to be seen. Seems to me I am following this blog life cycle and going down the path of the blog frozen in time. In the list of blog-cycle activities I have listed, leaving it is next. What I do know is that writing this open diary has been a blessing. It was cathartic for me through lots of life changes – death, birth, illness, career, seminary. And I know it made you laugh – even out loud, I’ve been told. Who knows what is next?

Blessings to you in 2012!



Predictability, Walking, and Husbanks

Riddles started walking at a year. Congrats Riddles!

Husbanks, predictably, has already given him a putter.

While I roll my eyes when I imagine myself saying, “My son had a golf club when he was one,” Husbanks’ love for the game is pretty endearing. And golf is a good hobby to love. He’s not teaching Riddles to steal cars or abuse women or anything.

Why did I go there? Weird jump, Hil.



Favorite Quotes from Orientation

I went to day one of orientation today. My mind is swimming. I don’t know any Presbyterian hymns. Help me Lacy.

Funny and interesting quotes from today.

“Think of your theology text as entering into a conversation with someone. They just happen to be dead.”

“You’ll have a lot of books. If you don’t like books why are you here?”

“The hours listed in a pastoral job description refer to pay only.”

I am a student! Weird.


Nine Months Pregnant and Nine Months Old

Riddles is now as old as I was pregnant.

Nine months (with child)

Nine months (on earth)

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True Colors

There is a dispute in our house over the color of this toothbrush.

Please vote.


July 2

I wonder how long I will remember the details of July 2. Telling Morgan I was leaving work. Johanna driving me to the airport. Buying a ticket, getting on a plane, waiting outside in the summer heat for my aunt to pick me up. Rushing to wait. The local journalists reporting that the deal was finalized for Oklahoma City to purchase the Sonics. Programming the 405 number for questions about the new team into my phone. It’s still there. Talking with my brother about a meth addict who welded a life-sized statue of Gene Simmons. Vacillating between emotions with my mom. I remember what I was wearing, how I felt. Calling Husbanks. The flashes of July 2, 2008.

Next week, I’ll preach about my dad for the first time. It’s only one sentence in an otherwise tame – though thought-provoking (give me credit, peeps) sermon, but it’s a personal step. BK’s Easter sermon about her dad will always stick with me, so I hope this one will be meaningful as well.

I have a funny post in the pipeline this week to make up for this one. Don’t worry.


Four Years

I started blogging four years ago. Huh.

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2010 Survey

Got this from my friend Rachel‘s blog.

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before? I begat.

2. Did you keep your resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I can’t find a record of making any New Year’s Resolutions for 2010, so I am going to say “yes.” Under promise, over deliver.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? That is an understatement.

4. Did anyone close to you die? Proximity or emotionally?

5. What countries did you visit? Costa Rica

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? I don’t want to get stressed out.

7. What date(s) from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? November 11 and November 21. Birth and homecoming.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? ERM! Oh, and I made it up the big hill.

9. What was your biggest failure? Being a post-partum crazy-pants.

10. Did you suffer any illness or injury? Birth is pretty intense.

11. What was the best thing you bought? Subway tile back splash.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Husbanks for dealing with post-partum (and pregnant for that matter) crazy-pants.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? I can’t answer this in a public forum.

14. Where did most of your money go? Vacations and kitchen.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Having medical insurance. Oh, and making it up the big hill.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010? Oh this won’t get one answer.

  • While I was pregnant, I listened to Taizé and Ben Folds a capella because I thought that would be a nice womb soundtrack.
  • Ginny told me that some of her favorite labor memories are about the music people picked, so I planned by birth playlist with precision.
  • I listened to Taizé during labor, and as I was pushing (gross) we listened to the first twenty minutes of Midlake’s latest album.
  • Those were very deliberate decisions.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? I am happier now.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner – I just had a baby. Leave me alone, Survey.
iii. richer or poorer? We have more money now, but more money is being spent too. Ridley needs stuff.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Road biking.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Stressing out.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? Making sure a mobile baby doesn’t eat any tinsel.

22. Did you fall in love in 2010? In a new way, yes.

23. How many one-night stands? Ha. You don’t know me very well, Survey.

24. What was your favorite TV program? Maternity leave has been defined by reruns of Scrubs and New Adventures of Old Christine.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? I don’t hate anyone. I dislike lots of people. ha

26. What was the best book you read? Grapes of Wrath

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? I like #4 on Lonely Avenue. And Groove for Thought.

28. What did you want and get? Ridley healthy.

29. What did you want and not get? A positive delivery of said baby. I was very depressed about this when I was in the post-partum crazy-pants phase, but I am OK with it now because I got a reward! ERM!

30. What was your favorite film of this year? I don’t really watch movies. We did watch a lot of birth videos.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I celebrated 30 with close friends on the banks of the beautiful Lake Tahoe. They made it such a special night complete with fancy wine, chocolate cake, and grilled meats. We also played “highs and lows” with our “highs and lows” host, three-year-old Colin.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Dude, I had a baby. I’m happy.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010? I had two goals: cover my belly and cover my swelling feet.

34. What kept you sane? Prayer (sponsored by Taizé) and Husbanks.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Probably Dr. Karp. There have been some late nights where I am pretty sure I’d kiss him if he were around.

36. What political issue stirred you the most? Generalizations of religious communities. That will always be the issue that stirs me the most.

37. Who did you miss? My dad the pediatrician during the whole NICU debacle.

38. Who was the best new person you met? Lacy and I became very close this year, but I met her a while ago.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010: How to support people when they have a baby in NICU.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: The kingdom of God is justice, peace, and joy in the holy spirit. Come Lord, and open the gates of your kingdom in us.



November 2010 is going to be busy. I have at least four friends planning to give birth in November (not including me). Ryantine’s Day 2010 was a busy one!

Not appropriate? Sorry.

Here are my college roommates.

Katie (far right) is due November 24. She will find out the sex of her baby in just a few weeks! Her birthday was Monday. Becky’s birthday (far left) is today, and she is having her baby tomorrow. It is a boy, and we still don’t know the name. Suh-spense-fullll!

Stacie – another college friend – is due November 2 in the same hospital I plan to deliver in.

I secretly want Stacie to be late and me to be a tad early so we can be hospital buddies. Because this would make her pregnant longer than 40 weeks, I am not sure how she feels about this plan.

I never thought I’d be part of a baby boom, but that’s just the thing. There is so much about pregnancy you can’t predict or control. All I know is that I have given up my daily dosage of four cups of coffee and my favorite past time, happy hour, so I must be excited that this is happening now.


I Sent My Bike to Boarding School

For the next few months, my doctor has advised against cycling. Rumor has it I will lose my balance now that my stomach is changing, and I don’t want to do that on the ever busy Duval Rd.

So I sent my bike to boarding school in Georgetown, Texas. While there, my bike will learn how to operate in a family with two babies and my bike will also make trips to and from a grocery store down the street. Under the tutelage of Lacy, my bike will gain competencies consistent with those of a family bike, better preparing it for its rider’s future (me). Perhaps it will teach me a few tricks upon its return.